Red I so agree as I know how hard it can be when I lost my beloved a little over 4 years ago. You live in a fog with your heartbreak and anger. You want to blame someone but there is no one to blame. I had to take life hour by hour and progressed to day by day for a long time. Still the tears come and I feel so alone but then I reach out to my loved ones still here as they are here to help me thru this. I will always miss him. So all I can to you is baby steps - take it hour by hour and don't hold back your feelings regardless of what they are as you do need to express them and as Red said I too can be a sounding board and will listen anytime. No one here will judge you so please feel free to be yourself and express any and all feelings you need to. Many hugs. Susan
Red, I could not have said it any better. I echo Red's sentiments. I know today being the day of the funeral, is going to be one of the toughest days of your life. You have been in my thoughts and prayers since I read the sad news about John. Today, I will be with you in spirit and am praying that God finds a way to lift your burden day by day. Please know that I am thinking of you and you are in my prayers.
I just read your post today, I don't cry easily but the floodgates are open. I can't even imagine the pain you are in and I'm so sorry - I wish I could help in some way. Please take care of yourself, we are all here for you.
As this day comes to a close, I send wishes and good thoughts your way. I hope that you are able to see the sunrise in the morning and know that John is still with you. The the sun is the warmth of his touch, the gentle breeze is his breath in your hair, the birds chirping are his songs to you, and the budding flower is his promise to always be with you. . . . .