I have been away from the forum and world for some time.
My brother was murdered in September at the age of 42. Weeks later my 51 old sister was brain dead. The only comfort I have is we donated her organs and she saved 6 lives. I have miss this place and all of you.
So sorry for your loss. Two losses like this so close together would send anyone into a downhill spiral. Now that you have taken the step to come back to us, you should continue to come back here & let us wrap our arms around you as you work yourself thru your grief.