OK, some of my friends have not heard the whole story, so I am going to start from the beginnng, I AM typing on my brand new notebook, and it is hard to hit the small keys. I had been sick wth intestinal flu for a couple weeks. I called my DR, but he was out of town and his replacement would not treat me without me going there, an hours drive. So I waited. On Wednesday, I got very ill, literally spent hours beiing ill. Then the pain staRTED, worse than labor pains. Finally I called TJ at work and asked him to come TAke me to the ER. My kidneys had stopped working, my potassium was 7 causing my heart to beat wildly, I Had almost no blood pressure when Isat up. So they admitted me riight to ICU and put me on dyalisis. I had almost put off going until the next day. They said I would not have lived thru the day. mY heart continued with a fib, and the intestinal distress continued. After a week, they deicded to do A colonoscopy. Also, they would put a device down my throat to shock my heart back to normal rhythym. This involved drinking a gallon of Miralax and then a series of enemas. A good way too get to know your male nurse!!!!! They put me put for all this, but was sort of aware of things. It was horrible to say the least. When I got back to my room, the first thing I was told wass that the cardioversion worked. Then I slept for hours and hours. Next morning the Dr came in AND STOOD at the foot of the bed AND SAID the news was all bad. It seems it shocked alll of them, no one expected it. It seems at some time in the past I had a silent heart attack. The whole front of my heart mucscle is deAD. i have atiall valve stenosis. My heart is trying to pump bllood through a pinhole instead of a quarter. IN turn, my lungs and internal organs mare suffering from lack of oxyginated blood. My legs are still weeping copiously, that is pART OF IT ALSO. Then they told me I am not a candidate for open heart surgery, I would not survive. They cannot manage it with medicine for very long. So, they are searching for a heart surgeon who will try it laparscopically. Some of the best cardiac surgeons in the nation are here at Barnes/Jewish. The elder in chARGE of mour congregation works with them, so he will be involved in the decision. My kidneys are not quite back to normal, creatine and bun high. I am in PT. I amm of mcourse mvery weak,mbutmI managed to walk 17 feet today. Don't laugh, it was good! I will be in room 5205 for a while, then go to a skilled nursing center until they decide what to do. i don't really have a choice, and I am scared and depressed. Got a call from TJ this afternoon saying he whould not be ABLE TO FEED THE caTS TODay since he was rushed to the hospital last night with chest pains. Spent the night having tests and they decided it was jus ACID REFLUX. i AM AT A LOSS.